Man, it has been quite awhie since I last post a journal on DevianArt.
I decided to finally say that I am going to slow down with my art right now due to life issues and complications, but I will finish the prizes for the winners in Once Dead OCT. It might take me a little longer to complete them all this month since I am working and try to keep up with bills and rent. It's not easy but I'll still make it my goal to have the prizes all done. Right now I have like two chibi drawings in waiting...or was that three? I think it was three that are in waiting. I'll scan them later after I am caught up with my responsibilities and projects.
I understand that some people may be disgruntled about me not having
not up and ready yet. It's still being in progress as I am developing the plot and information. Thing is, it's going to be a casual rp group that will not need so much maintaince. And I do apologize to the members for the inconvience for not being the best cofounder. Running contests and rp events is a lot of work. And as for the NPC contest I am also sorry if it didn't turn out as we thought it would. My poor mod was very busy and it was difficult to complete it. I was alone using Havoc to intereact with other characters, but from what...I feel about his...I am sorry if he seem out of character or the rp seem rushed. Thing is, I am very well aware of my goof-ups but I am still learning to get better as a cofounder. I hate being forced/rushed into working on things and nagged at about it. Especially when it starts to feel like a chore I start to lose interest and motivation. Receiving constant problems and stress over one little thing will make me become less and less caring for that project. Even if it is a lot of work I still want to have fun and enjoy trying to do my best.
So far I am the only person running the boat trying to get Anachrons going, but so far all I need to do is put in more detail for the areas on the map and organize information.
From deep within my heart, I know that I don't like to follow other people's ideas and comforts if it will make our story seem to not add up to its name. Like, too many chefs spoils the soup. And when that soup gets spoiled I don't care about it. Throw it out. Keep the other chefs out of the kitchen while I make the meal. If someone is willing to listen to my ideas and what needs to get done...like someone chop the carrots and pass me the salt shaker....you get the idea.
And as for my mistakes.......I am moving on to improve without repeating the same mistakes. If anyone dares continues to digs up errors from my past to try make me feel bad, there is one thing I want to say...."F*CK YOU!"
All my life I was always a fighter striving to survive the odds and ends that made me a stronger person, only wanting a comfortable life without drama and misfortunes. I always worked hard and loose what I deserve to gain from my efforts. I kept on working until I manage to achieve my goals. Yes, I have fallen down quite a lot but I always get back on my feet. There are still complications in my life but it wasn't as bad like before.
After looking back at what I have dealt with before had made me realize I changed so much over the new path I have taken. My life isn't perfect but I try to make the best of it enjoying whatever time I have. People always wonder why I laugh so much while I am struggling to work, carry heavy grocery bags walking miles to get home from the store. I guess...it's how I handle stress? I don't know. I sometimes find humor when things goes wrong. Like, I have the most sh*ttiest luck! I'm serious! Almost everyday something have to happen!
Anyways, besides the long update of my life and thoughts, I am going to make a comic series. It will not be on DevianArt but it is going to be posted on another site.